It’s nice that this is here.
Retreat has ended and Daddy & I were intent about bringing Carmel home this time, what we learned, what we’re committed to. So, we brought you to see Jesus, our Holy Friend in the Holy Eucharist.
What I had to say about Father Earley’s talks with us really doesn’t do him justice, but I’m glad we were able to start presenting the ideas from our retreat. It felt like a continuation, really. We’d spoken of Father Earley all those years ago, and in a way, our lives got interrupted when he left us back then, too. But, now he’s back and we’ve picked up right where we left off.
Kids, that is a true definition of friendship: wherever there is divine love, an intimate sharing of hearts rooted in God, His Beauty, His Goodness, His Truth, there is true friendship. When you can pick up where you left off, you’re picking up from the Truth of your Divine Love, from the Truth of your friendship. This is how it is for me and your father and Father Earley. May we be blessed with his presence for as long as possible, if it is God’s Holy Will..
When I say “we,” I mean all of us.
From now on, I’ll be sharing everything of what we learn, whether you guys are ready for it or not. I’m a teacher — how can I not interpret what we’ve learned in Carmel for your wee little listening, your wee little hearts and your wee little spirits?
Hence, igniting this blog.
I’m not interested in going back to the way things were. This weekend, I repented. I asked for forgiveness of offending Him by running away, hiding, playing and fettering my time away with distractions instead of following after Him, in whatever it has been that He has wanted to show me. Several weeks ago, when I was in Holy Adoration, I was inspired to ask for the graces I had lost throughout my lifetime, for everything I had lost because of my negligence, ignorance, laziness, whatever fault. In a moment, I just wanted it all back. I didn’t want to fail God and hurt Him anymore. Me. Just me. Not, the world hurts Him, so I don’t want to add to it.
I am cause enough for Christ’s suffering on the Cross, because I know He would have done it just for me if I was the only one He was intent on saving.
I didn’t want to hurt Him anymore. It began there.
I wanted to amend my life and change the course of my History. I wanted to get back on the road of becoming a saint.
This weekend was the tail end of that resolution. I sought forgiveness for the harm I’d caused Him.. and even that has roots in asking for forgiveness from other people in my life. It’s a grace how I’ve been faithful to that inspiration of humility, see where it has led me. It started with one person (your Dad), then another, until finally it was brought to it’s natural conclusion: Our Dear God.
Jesus has shown me this path. It has been Him all along, I know this. Father Earley has shown this to me, and now it’s time for me to write this down and show you the pathway, too.
I will continue to flesh out the conferences from the retreat this weekend here. I’ll compose some of my notes, some of what Father Earley said, some resources he offered.
I’ll reflect, I’ll pray, and I’ll leave everything in God’s hands. But, most importantly, I will follow the praying Jesus.. pray before, pray after, be with Him always.
Do the same as He does for the Glory of Our Father in heaven.